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[Mar. 27th, 2006|02:53 pm] |
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You know... something I miss about my relationship with barbie... and she does too... the innocents... We are so open and close. there is no shyness anymore... no innocents... I just kinda miss it a little... |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2006|01:20 am] |
Sex has become a chore again... but even then... I'm happy...
I came to that realization earlier today... I'm truly happy... more so than I have ever been...
It scares me... I want to cry... to feel pain... I want these things to happen so that I don't forget them... I don't want to get lost in my happiness and have something happen in which the pain is refreshed... new...
Maybe I'm an emotional masochist... but this is the way I feel |
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[Mar. 19th, 2006|09:57 am] |
I have work at 3pm... I went to bed at 4am... I got up at 7am... all just so I could continue reading that manga...
I do have a softer side to me... and romance's, done in the proper way, truely move me...
It was good... very good... I'm touched...
and now I sleep |
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[Mar. 19th, 2006|12:11 am] |
I LOVE the internet
I coudln't take the suspense, so I went is search of the manga on the internet, even if it was just japanese pages with pictures... and found the WHOLE thing in english
http://albin.abo.fi/~jfors/Is/?show=1
for anyone that cares.
I don't know if this means the whole series can be purchased or what... but now I get to continue... YAY! |
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[Mar. 18th, 2006|08:33 pm] |
GOD DAMMIT!
I hate when I get to the point in something that the next installment isn't out... and worse yet... It leaves on a cliffhanger.
My current problem is the manga I''s. It's a romantic comedy that is starting to get really good... I want to read more... but there isn't more to read just yet... it's extremely fucking annoying. Infact... I have that problem with all my mangas... I buy in bulk... so I'm cuaght up with damn near all of them... and I say damn near becuase I started a new series yesterday to give me something to do while I wait for the others to come out...
This is all so very frustrating... so many intreging stories... and I can't continue them... /cry
I tried AQ 20 today... server lag fucked us on every attempted we made on the 1st boss... once at around 4% and another at 5... though... I take that back... the first time we just didn't know what the best strat was. all times after that we did real good till the lag.
I need to start reading my books... complete stories are better than mangas that fuck with your desires to read more...
I saw "V is for Vendetta", good movie, very strong political message... hope people can see that. It also convinced me to stop putting off the finding and downloading of the 1812 Overture. I also finally found the full version of O fortuna... Someone on vent said to me "my god, you actually listen to that stuff?" and I told him to not be upset that I have good taste in music, Ode to Joy was on at the time. he then said "I can imagine him runnign around fighting witht hat music on and thinking he's a bad ass" I replied... "no, if I wanted to feel like a badass I would listen to this" and put O fortuna on... which is the ultimate in battle music since I can't understand the words...
That about ends my rant... see ya next time |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|05:20 pm] |
Well, I've got a new job. I'll be starting it March 6th. I'll be a floor tech (the guy that buffs the floors) at San Jacitno Methodist Hospital. Lots of chances to get higher up and go back to college... more time to do things (2 days off a week) I have morninings off, 3-11, so Ic an take monring classes if I go school...
I'm very pleased...
If you're tired of not seeing my on MSN, Download a program called "Teamspeak"
Input this info
Server: 24.173.81.157:8767
Password: affliction
My guild has moved from TS to ventrillo... so I want to use TS to keep in contact with the people that the gamekeeps me from talking too...
Log in as annymous |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|01:27 pm] |
Sometimes after sex... I get really dizzy and light headed... and there is a ringing in my ears...
I haven't every really put much thought into it... always figured I just worked harder than I should have... butt his last time has gotten me a little concerned... it wasn't a very energy deplitting session...
I'm slightly concerned.
and yet I can't help but to quote james at this moment... "She'll fuck you to death" |
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[Jan. 24th, 2006|10:34 pm] |
When I lock eyes with someone that I consider even remotly attractive, even for an instant, I feel I have to look away as quick as possable in hopes that the wrong impression isn't receaved... It's odd...
I'm not checking out there figure, I'm merely looking at them... and I feel like it's wrong. I don't understand it... |
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[Jan. 14th, 2006|12:54 am] |
So I was almost going to break my vow of not seeing FF:AC... I saw a trailer on it and Was curious why they were seemingly fighting the summons.... and why what seemed to be bahamut looks for fucking gay...
So I went to holiwood video... don't carry it... ok... odd... but... wahtever... go to blockbuster... don't have it...
hmmm... whatever... I didn't want to watchin it prior to last night, and now I don't care again...
thank you video stores, for helping me maintain my vow...
It's probably an omen anyways |
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[Dec. 31st, 2005|09:02 pm] |
Quick! Everyone gather your weapons and hide your families... the US is going have a civil war at any moment! John Tittor said so!
It'll be the Country versus the City... Urban versus Farm folk... don't trust any of them... they will kill you on sight!
Be safe... and may God have mercy on all our souls. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2005|11:29 pm] |
Granted the only book of that series that I've ever read was "The Magician's Nephew"... so I'm not entirely sure about this... but I thinkt hey crammed the entire series... EXCEPT the book I read... into a 2 hour and 20 minute movie...
It's funny... in several cases... the movie wants to to actually care about the characters and there deaths or whatever... Except they haven't had enough dialog or screen time for me give even a slight damn...
About the only character I cared about was peter (horrible name) and the lion...
Oh... and Jason who is over my shoulder as I type this... brings up a great point... the fucking vibe you get between peter and the older sister... whatever her name was... There is SUCH a fucking incest vibe... It does NOT go well with the story...
Over all... I give it a 4 out of 10...
If it were done right... I would be a 8 or 9... but they simply rushed it TO fucking hard... |
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[Oct. 13th, 2005|02:44 pm] |
So around 3 o'clock yesterday, I tell barbie to go check out that place that is hiring... Dustin comes over so I talk to him, Barbie gets back around 4ish and around 5 or 6 I ask "So how did it go?"
She replies "I go in at 10:20 tomorrow"
I ask, "For what, you're interview?"
To which she answers "No, I go in, I got the job"
I sit there staring at her for a minute or two... "and you didn't think this was important enough to tell me?" She just sat on the bed for 2 hours reading... never saying anything to me about it.
It was funny...
But now she's moved in, and everything is going good... so far. |
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[Oct. 11th, 2005|09:29 pm] |
I've been thinking alot today about alot of things while a work... mostly because my co-workers aren't worth talking too.
The first of my series of several little rants is about intelligence. What exactly dictates intelligence... knowledge possessed? Ability to understand unknown knowledge? Or could it simply be open-mindedness? I believe at least a little of the first 2, and the 3rd is needed. It seems to be that book smarts doesn't make you smart... I know this from experience with people I know... and simply understanding doesn't seem to be intelligence either. But When you have an open-mind, and are willing to try and accept even the most out there possibilities... though you may not believe them yourself... but acknowledge that it is possible... I think that is what makes a person intelligent...
On to the 2nd.
Gay marriage... I believe that the government should not force churches to marry people that are gay... but I also believe that the government shouldn't have the right to ban it all together either. Since it's mostly the religious people that have issues with this, I have this to say to you... Doesn't the bible say "He who is without sin, cast the first stone"? Also... Free will is the greatest gift god gave man... so if it's this person's choice to condemn his soul to hell because of his lifestyle... then it's his fucking choice... and who arr you, or the government, to say that it's not legal and thus taking that choice from them?
3rd...
Equal rights amongst woman... seriously girls... you don't deserve equal rights if you can't handle equality... sex jokes and insults are what men do... and if you want to be equal... then that means you will be involves and even the butt of these insults and jokes... that's equality... live with it... or be happy with your right to vote and shut up about the rest...
and lastly...
Prostitution... there was something on the news about how the government shouldn't legalize and regulate prostitution... and I have this to say... you know what the major difference between porn and prostitution is? In Porn, both of the people get paid... If you make it legal... then you have to be of a certain health and get regular check ups to be a prostitute... which means less STDs running around... because if people can get clean folk... they will. And the last thing I have to say about this is... if it's legal... that means more jobs for the people that are willing to do it... which means more jobs for everyone else because those people that enjoy sex enough to do that sort of thing wont be filling up jobs for the people that wont do that sort of thing.
Bitch me out... agree with me... discuss... I don't really care... well.. except for the discussion... I love discussions...
Done and done. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2005|11:05 pm] |
So I'm on a Manic spree and considering yet another job that would have me away for months at a time. The pay is $11.00 an hour and I would be working roughly 84 hours a week... which 44 of those 84 hours is time and a half... which means for those of you that don't understand how time and a half works... $16.50 an hour.
What annoys me, is that I'm seeing too far ahead with the marrage, honeymoon in japan, and all the possablities with that kind of money... getting hopeful...
I actually prefer being depressed... I think rationally when I'm depressed... right now I don't see all the things keeping me from obtianing those goals... and I know there are a shitload more than likely...
I'm so tired of my current job though... I work in the morning, get a 4 hour break, then work till 10... 6 days a week, roughly 7.5 hours a day... all for 6.50 an hour...
I don't make enough money to not have time for a life...
$2272.00 a check is... for the time being, enough money to not have a life... because on my time off, I have money to DO something...
Jason makes a valid point though... it's pretty much only a temp job... and my experiance with getting jobs really sucks... I can't get a job to save my life it seems... only reason I have one now is because of who I knew... It fell in my lap...
I just don't know anymore...
But at least what Jason said to me has made me depressed... I can think this out from a more realist point of view...
Maybe after running the turn around... I'll join the army to better my chances at life...
Damn the Army... I want to avoid it at all costs... but maybe that is the road I have to take... my family don't have the money to help me... no one does... I'm not lucky enough to find a good job...
Fuck I hate life... maybe I'll use my check to buy a gun...
If only I could... but I couldn't leave Jason hanging like that... no... I just have to wait a year before I can end it all... make enough to pay my end of rent... |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2005|02:24 pm] |
Welp... I'm back from the storm, moved... and have internet back...
Now it's back to the good ol "Work till I die... and like it" phase of life... you know... the rest of life?
There isn't really more to say about it all... |
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[Sep. 14th, 2005|03:22 am] |
My 5 year aniversary is coming up... but I work that day... so I'm going to make us a peperroni pizza with the peperroni's arranged into a heart... I might take a picture of it... I unno...
I love how work makes me so very apathetic to most things now... I'm looking forward to my aniversary... but after that... I just don't know... I guess having Barbie move in with me is the next close thing to look forward too. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2005|10:08 pm] |
You know what I hate about the food industry the most? The fact that if you are on clean up... almost done... and a customer comes in... welp... time to start over on fucking clean up...
God I hate people... and the food industry... hate them both SO fucking much. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2005|05:28 pm] |
I feel like talking about the gas issue cause everyone else is...
But since I have 2 minutes till I need to leave for work... I'll just copy and paste half of the comment I left in les' journal:
"I bitch about gas prices because it affects my lively hood... I don't bitch about it as much as others because I know the UK has like... 6-7 dollars a gallon...
The problem though is... America has alot of space... and we took advantage of that... and it's fucking us now... you can't walk anywhere... and there is no public transportation system... at least not here there isn't...
When I make like... 42 dollars a day... and 20-30 of that goes to gas to get me back and forth to work because the closest job I can get is 20 fucking miles away... it's all just a bit screwed up...
Hell that's why I'm looking for a place to live that is real close to my current job."
Done
half assing shit is great |
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